Ok buried Robbie yesterday, I had to remind myself that we are like caterpillars and leave behind chrysalis's for what God has ready for us forever. It still hurt and didn't make a damn bit of difference but I had to hold it together for her girls. She had been an EMT (emergency medical technician) for over 20 years and was darn proud of it. When a emergency response personnel dies they have what is called last call over the air to all stations to know that one of their own had passed to God...Oh Lord we all lost it. That made it real for so many of us, now we have to get on with the living without her...what am I going to do without my best friend and confidant?